it's been a long, long, while

i hope i would get the chance to post about the year 2005. i keep imagining it will be a looonngg entry so i end up procrastinating. but anyway, i keep saying that so far, 2005 is the best year of my life. it started with a bang and ended with a bang as well. not quite what we (casa people) wanted or expected...but i believe the changes, no matter how sad it made us, weren't as bad as we thought it was/will be. sometimes i think that in a way, we were "punished" for having too much fun in 2005 that we sort of jinxed it. it was like all the proclamations that nothing could ever sink the Titanic...and look what happened.

it was actually a bittersweet ending for me. there were parts of my life that i didn't want to change...but some were inevitable, and some had to happen so i could be happy. it was a tradeoff that i do not regret, but still sometimes brings a wistful sigh out of me. i'm sentimental like that. i want it all. hehe.

anyway, i just want to say that all the effort i poured into taking all the right steps to healing, loving myself, my family and my friends, enjoying all the things that life offered me, pruning myself to become a better person, paid off because here i am - happier than i ever thought i would be. :) nobody expected it, but in a way, i think that it's about time. i was ready. and i still had my faith: there is someone out there who will make me happy. i don't mind if he takes his time finding me. i just know he will.

...and here he is.

hi glenn! :)